Hometoday I hacked through code. learning javascript syntax, learning how to do function calls to an application. it is hard stuff, but piece by piece things are coming together. I like it when I get so absorbed in solving problems that the time goes by quickly. it makes work enjoyable and it makes it feel like you’ve done something.
I didn’t get much kid time today which was sad for me. I think Brighton actually wanted to run with me today. Now that she knows she can run a mile, it’s not so big a deal. we ran a mile last night and she did AWESOME. I’m so proud of her. Maybe tomorrow will be a bit different. maybe she’ll go to bootcamp with me. who knows. she’s a trooper and almost 9 years old. where did my baby girl go?
as many can tell, things have been rough on me lately. I’m need to deflate. there I said it. it’s good to get some stuff out to look at and work with from time to time and when enough people express worry about your well being, then it’s just time to go and talk about it. so I made plans to and we’ll see what we have to find out. life is stressful and stress can do weird things to a person. me, i show signs of depression and hopelessness, like a cloud over me that just does not lift or let light in. It is quite frustrating to me, as I would like to be one to just shoulder it off and keep trucking, but things can wear you down.
my life is really good, i wish i would always believe that. blessed beyond measure.