HomeI know that I have abandoned this place. There have been lots of distractions and lots of other activity that have demanded my time. I am currently reading a book, actually several books, but one book in particular – The Call – by Os Guinness. It is really the central question of my life right now. What am I to do. What is or has God called me to. Obviously God has called me to being a follower of Christ. However, past that, what have I been called to, what is my purpose and meaning. The book discusses the concept of calling and what it has meant in the past and what it has been twisted into today. He also looks at the effects of calling by using examples from the past and then looks at the effects of how modern interpretations of calling or the lack of attending to calling has affected culture and meaning today. So, I am reading and praying that I would know what it is that my life is for, or rather, what it is that I can not only live for, but also die for. I don’t know what this looks like and it may just be a changed viewpoint on where God already has me. However, I wonder if maybe I have been brought to this point in my life where I have had moderate success and attained good income and found it to be empty (though comfortable) if there is not something more that I am supposed to be about, supposed to be attending to. I don’t need more to do mind you. I am wondering what it is instead of what I’m doing that is my calling, or if where I am with different mindset is where I’m supposed to be. It comes down to wanting to be where God would have me and making myself available for Him to use and also open to moving if He so chooses. I’m not so good at the hearing and the interpreting, so I must diligently pray and listen and watch for what He is doing and moving. More to come I’m sure.
July 14th, 2008