I’m not here much any more. life is busy. I’m busy. life has been both joyous and dark and dealing with that is difficult. It is hard being joyful when your flesh wants it’s own way. I have things to figure out. things to stand up for, things to let go. counseling to begin, chapters to end and chapters to begin. A desire to write once more. But I don’t know what. I desire that God would keep me and that He would sovereignly keep me through the darkness, through the trial. May the reality be, and may I recognize it, that He is all I have anyway, despite my feelings and my attachments. The distractions mount, the desires come and yet all that really matters is God. Now to make the connection from the mind to the heart. Hard to do swimming in darkness. Afraid of the unknown. God keep me and have mercy on me in my weakness. Grow me and strengthen me that I might once again soar high in Joy of you. God help me wait on you, I do it so infrequently. Help me know what that means and calm my heart while you work.

In Christ I pray, amen.